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This is something to keep you company in case I am late tonight.I am writing this on the empty page between ray optics and wave optics in my physics NCERT textbook while sitting on the wall of my roof. It’s a nice breeze up here.I feel like its calling me. The night I mean. Its challenging me to step out of my comfort zone and face what scares me the most – my own failure.The wind , lol , its taunting me. It knows my heart so well.It knows things I even hide from my mind.It knows just how I have been escaping from hard work all this while.It knows that my fear of failure is so strongly rooted that it stops me trying hard and giving my 100 percent , being the best I can. It knows I hide behind it , use it as an excuse whenever I fail.I did not give it my 100% you see , I always say.The truth , my heart knows and so does this strong wind hitting me hard in the face right now. The truth is that I fail BECAUSE I don’t give it my best shot.I don’t put in my sincerity, hard work, my sweat and blood in things that should be my priorities.You work to your best but that doesn’t always give you the results that you want.I learnt this very early in life. But if you don’t work hard and then fail , failure doesn’t hit you that hard. If you fail , you can always say you didn’t put in enough hard work , make it look circumstantial .And if by pure chance , you happen to succeed even with the half-hearted effort you put in , you can brag about how your half-hearted effort got you so much success and speculate with ease on what your full effort would have got you.The cold hard rain is hitting me harder than the cruel wind in my face.I guess I should stop writing now.There’s no need to write more.Its going to be a stormy night …..The cold rain and merciless lightning , fast and so furious wind , cloudy dark sky….daring me, to face my self , to look in the mirror of my soul and face the truth.