SD-IV

Another day in my journey to find myself, another lesson learnt.You have to love yourself before others can love ya.And for that, you need to let yourself be, without being self-judgmental.Well, Tuesday night I did just that.I observed all the thoughts that came to my mind, without labeling them good or bad.And I accepted that I had a dark side to myself.I had/have as much capacity for being immoral as I had/have for being moral.Knowing and accepting this somehow gave me a sense of freedom.I felt so much at ease with myself that it almost shocked me.Paradox? Ya, I know...But anyhow, I let myself surface…dark side or not was immaterial...It was then that I learnt what is probably the biggest lesson of life.Heaven and Hell, Good and Bad, God and Devil not only coexist but complement each other.Life is all about balance between these two forces/energies.And it’s all in our hand.Destiny just presents us with the situation.It’s up to us how we respond.And that’s how we create our own future.Life is really about perceptions and choices.How we perceive a situation and what choices do we make on the basis of our perception, determines essentially the quality of life we live.I had read most of these things in books but there’s a difference in knowing something and experiencing it.Its how the Germans put it, the difference between “wissen” and “kennen”.Anyhow, coming back to balance.I think that is what sums up everything – balance.Whenever faced with any choice, I would keep in mind this golden word –balance.And that’ll give direction to my life.It’ll help me make my dreams a reality.It’ll help me move towards fulfilling the purpose of my existence.And once again this lesson wouldn’t have been possible without the support and love of my jaan.She helped me accept my self - dark side included.She shared her own self completely (dark side again included) with me as I shared my innermost thoughts with her. She put me at ease just like I put her at ease.And we were with each other , absolutely transparent sharing whatever came to the mind , whatever the heart felt , just about everything.It was such a divinely lifting experience to be so transparent with someone, to just say what you wanna, raw and unadulterated. The one-pointedness of the mind, so effortless and so spontaneous, really came as a surprise to me. It was absolutely unexpected to say the least.The amazing sense of connection and the purity of the moment were just wow!It was a night I’ll always remember. I met my dark side after all!Well I guess this was long enough , what do you say?So I’d better end this here…