Learning.

Learning: About Dreams…

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Visualize your dream. And let it go. Then, work with what you get to make your dream come true…

Don’t set up positions for people in your life. This isn’t a play. It’s your life. Stop writing out characters and then looking for someone to play them. Let those who matter find their own space in your heart and your life…

Stopped counting...

Someday We’ll Know

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I bought a ticket to the end of the Rainbow,
Watched the Stars crash into the Sea,
If I can ask GOD just one question,
Why aren’t you here with me?
As mine…
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SD - XXXVII

Always searching for someone when I looked in the mirror…today…I see…myself.

And I smile. I am beginning to know myself…befriend me…thinking to myself, ‘Hey, I like this girl I see…’ …after all this time of searching I find my strength…within me…I am my strength…not just my courage, not just my pain, not just my confidence or the lack of it, not just my resilience etc .…it’s all of me…good bad and ugly…I am my biggest most unfailing strength and I am my biggest weakness…it’s all about what I choose to make of myself…

SD - XXXVI

It’s all coming true. Just when I let go, I get all I ask for. Like always. J Everything that I wish for shall come true…just a matter of time…and place…and people…lol!!!

That’s what I ask for, isn’t it? A moment. With a place. Or a person. Or a feeling. But all I ask for are moments…do I dare ask for more????

Yea, I do. I want more from life…I want to live more, fuller and richer, with more learning, with more belief, more faith…

I wish for family. I wish for health of my parents. I wish for someone to come home to…one person, maybe a whole family to come home to…I wish I come home to the same people every time…..

I am here. I am where I wanted to be. It’s all happening. Everything I wished for is coming true.

SD - XXXV

The lights went off. I looked at him. Candlelight. His eyes. Beautiful eyes. Conversing with mine. And the world suddenly seemed different.

One moment, just one moment, stretching into an eternity. Lifetimes of separation and togetherness all lived in that one moment.

Stranger. And yet he felt like the oldest friend.

His smile. Starlit. Sparkling in his eyes. Innocently mischievous.

Something about that smile. It stayed with me. Those eyes, that moment. It all just stayed with me.

Warm. Loved. Cherished.

I sleep, smiling…

SD - XXXIV

Strange things are happening. Feels like I am once again on the edge. I can fall either way…stability seems so far away. Home feels like something distant and unknown. I am losing, losing the security of familiarity. Maybe it’s a price I pay for finding myself. On the edge once again, I feel so alive. And yet something in me feels so dead. It is as if I have lived and died in just one moment. I am mourning and celebrating simultaneously. Life is finding itself through the winding paths of every day existence. Don’t know where I am headed. Don’t know if I’ll have company. Don’t know if I’ll get there. Don’t know.

No future. No past. Just this moment. Could life be? In just this moment? For just this moment?

Security. I know I need it. Coming Home.

SD - XXXIII

A tornado is needed once in a while to take your life in the right direction.

Sometimes, only the strong wind can break shackles that we will never have the strength to break on our own.

And, maybe, just maybe, I am glad that the tornado came last September.