SD - XXXVI

It’s all coming true. Just when I let go, I get all I ask for. Like always. J Everything that I wish for shall come true…just a matter of time…and place…and people…lol!!!

That’s what I ask for, isn’t it? A moment. With a place. Or a person. Or a feeling. But all I ask for are moments…do I dare ask for more????

Yea, I do. I want more from life…I want to live more, fuller and richer, with more learning, with more belief, more faith…

I wish for family. I wish for health of my parents. I wish for someone to come home to…one person, maybe a whole family to come home to…I wish I come home to the same people every time…..

I am here. I am where I wanted to be. It’s all happening. Everything I wished for is coming true.

SD - XXXIV

Strange things are happening. Feels like I am once again on the edge. I can fall either way…stability seems so far away. Home feels like something distant and unknown. I am losing, losing the security of familiarity. Maybe it’s a price I pay for finding myself. On the edge once again, I feel so alive. And yet something in me feels so dead. It is as if I have lived and died in just one moment. I am mourning and celebrating simultaneously. Life is finding itself through the winding paths of every day existence. Don’t know where I am headed. Don’t know if I’ll have company. Don’t know if I’ll get there. Don’t know.

No future. No past. Just this moment. Could life be? In just this moment? For just this moment?

Security. I know I need it. Coming Home.

SD - XXXIII

A tornado is needed once in a while to take your life in the right direction.

Sometimes, only the strong wind can break shackles that we will never have the strength to break on our own.

And, maybe, just maybe, I am glad that the tornado came last September.