SD-IX

I dont know why it keeps happening over and over again.I dont know why the more i try to untangle myself, the more i keep getting caught in this sickly web of emotions which have no place inmy past, present or futureI dont know why i keep dreaming of things which may or may not happen.I guess its okay to dream, bas unke poore hone ki shart nahin rakhni chahiye, haina?Ya shayad main hi pagal hoon...I dont know , i feel so lost all over again.I feel like i am going back to d place i came from with so much strength...I dont know how to stop this ...It seems like the wheels of fate have been already put into motion andnothing i think, say or do makes a difference.I feel like i am losing everyone..like i never had anyone...Yet why does it hurt, why?If i never had anyone then why does it hurt so much , Adi, why?Why cant this end, once and for all..???I dont think i have the strength to go on anymore....I know u'd b dissapointed ...but Adi, i am dissapointed too...of whati have made of things...I guess i cant let things be, i just have to interfere, huh?Emotions running high, logic running away....Sorry state.